We Were NEVER FRIENDS. We’re Not Friends, We’re Just Two Strangers Who Flirt With Each Other.

The more i realize this, the less i blame my self for losing you.

we were NEVER friends, because Friends dont say they addicted to each other, Friends don’t pick and choose when to answer texts. They are there for each other at any time of day, not only at night, not only when one person is feeling lonely and can’t find anyone else to fill the absence.

If you are my Friends, you should be there also when i am sad, not only when you were lonely.

If we are friends, you will not Hide me and be fine with some silly pictures tag on facebook.

Friends don’t go missing, They are consistent. Constant. They never leave each other hanging. They never disappear without a word.

It took me a long time to realize we are attracted to each other, we flirt with each other, but we are not friends. We never were.

Maybe that’s why we don’t talk anymore. Because now that there’s no chance of us getting together, there’s no point in talking. 

There’s nothing we have to gain. There’s no reason to pick up the phone and texts.

It’s funny how I spent so much time thinking about you, even though I barely knew you at all. I only knew the surface layers. The parts you were willing to show me.

I doubt you would be able to list off my favorite songs or animals. All of our time together was spent flirting. Bantering back and forth. Exchanging compliments. 

Back then, I assumed you were quiet. I assumed you needed more time to get comfortable around me and then you would start opening up. I assumed it would only be a matter of time until the dynamic between us shifted.

I mean, we texted. We flirted. We spent plenty of time in the same room together, which is why I assumed we were friends. I assumed you cared about me in the same way I cared about you.

I didn’t see you as someone I wanted to sleep with once and then sneak away from in the morning or someone I wanted to date without a friendship built inside. I saw you as someone I could trust. I saw you as one of the few people I actually enjoyed spending time alongside. i told you I AM SPOILED, i am what i am. i dont need some LABEL but i need consistency! i need you to talk to me. 

Obviously you felt differently. You saw me as a stranger that you could flirt with when you were bored. Someone you wouldn’t let yourself get too close to. Someone you considered temporary. 

How could you be so damn selfish and let my self blaming me! the way you said "we are friend, i told you so many times"means you just thinking about WHAT YOU WANT without even consider of what I want. and you dont even felt guilty about it! sending mixes signal then Breaking my hear.

We don’t need to put label on it 

But i need some consistency 

I need to know that you’re not gonna wake up the next morning and feel differently 

And i got left just like that

I try to understand what you want, you are not ready, we are just friend. I get it

But at least can you also put some little effort to understand what i want. I want someone to talk to. Dont have to be as boyfriend. As my friends. Not someone who can just ignore me whenever they feel like too. Friends don’t do that!

we were never friends, i told you i don't kiss my friend,i told you so many-times, but somehow you manage to made it like it was my fault, that i am the one who wasnt paid attention about "what we are".

When we stopped talking, you lost someone that you pictured yourself hooking up with one day in the future. 

I was the only one who lost a friend. lost person that i trusted so much, i opened up to you. i am the one who lost something important, i am the on who lost someone that i thought REALLY CARE about me and how was my day going on. 

I guess that’s why getting over you has been so much harder for me than it was for you. Because you were more to me than just some guy I flirted with.