Sampai Disini...

finally... gak sengaja dengerin D'masiv... yang CINTA SAMPAI DISINI yang jadi OST nya Alisa... ahhaha gila... Liriknya Nampar gw dengan cantik nya.. =) hahahaah jadi kepengen nangis...

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mencoba tuk pahami
mencari celah hatimu
bila harus menangis aku kan menangis
namun air mata ini telah habis

segalanya telah kuberikan
tapi kau tak pernah ada perhatian
mungkin kita harus jalani
cinta memang cukup sampai di sini

mencoba tuk rasuki
menyentuh palung jiwamu
bila harus mengiba, aku kan mengiba
namun rasa ini telah sampai di ujung lelahku

segalanya telah kuberikan
tapi kau tak pernah ada perhatian
mungkin kita harus jalani
cinta memang cukup sampai di sini

i wanna be WANTED

gw lagi STUCK dan bete BANGED! anything that i do mean nothing.. and i hate it!
gw pengen menghibur diri dan kangen sama temen temen gw....

i miss Jessica Putri..
i miss Ima mayliza
I miss Vera J.T
i miss Rini Nii..
I miss Shasa Bonsai.
i miss Putro Perdana Prabowo
i miss Andhini.
i miss Abigail David
i miss marissa bianca...
i miss Andreas Wimfrey
i miss Icha Larissa
I miss Gygis...
i miss ALL OF MY FRIENDS
i miss YOU GUYS WHO READ THIS!!

gw pengen banged jalan bareng sama mereka
menerapkan SISTER BALANCE antara teman , lovers and my self
dan dulu gak pernah bisa gw terapin karena gw terlalu pengecut buat bertindak.
i lost a lot of things with them.. and i miss it damn much..
i used to say.. i love him more than i need them... tapi.. he was never care...
dan sekarang gw baru sadar kalo i really really need them and i always be such a jerk because i forget them!


gw pengen pergi ke tempat2 menarik

gw pengen ke bandung dan makan di calista atas sambil ngeliat jutaan lampu yang gak pernah bikin gw berhenti senyum... iyaa.. gue suka banged sama lampu kecil2 yang banyaaakkk banged dan selalu bikin gw ngerasa nyaman!
gw pengen banged ke taman safari.. liat kuda nil yang lucu lucu... *mereka hewan favorit gw.. dan katanya ada kudanil baru disana.. bayi kudanil =)
gw pengen banget ke dufan ... naek korakora 5 x dan rajawali sampe 3 kali... naik kincir kincir dan teriak teriak kaya orang begoo....
gw pengen banged nenangin diri di puncak... makan jagung bakar malem malem sambil duduk di kap mobil dan nikmatin udara dingin.... =)
gw pengeeennn bangedd pergi ke balii... hehehe... nyusul jessica putri? boleh.. hahaha atau gak belanja belanja disana.. hehehe


dan jadi banyaaaakkk hal yang pengeeenn banged gw lakuin...

gw pengen sekedar ngelepas stress dengan balik lagi jadi Tifanny.. =) *orang yang kenal gw dari dulu.. know what it mean.. =)
gw pengen banged berenang di bogor.... jadi karena ga terlalu panas gw bisa berenang lama tanpa takut item...
gw pengen mandi aer panas di ci*apaaagituu namanya gw lupa...
gw pengen mancing di garut!
gw pengeeeennn makan nasi jaha sama dabu dabu!
gw pengen karokean sendirian kaya orang tolol.. jadi gada yang protes walau gw teriak teriak bego!
gw pengen SENANG SENANG
gw pengen ke 21 dan NONTON 3 FILM dalam sehari! seperti yang dulu sering gw lakuin... ga masalah... sendiri kek.. rame kek... i WANT IT!
gw pengen beli banyaaaaaaakkk bangeeedd DVD film yang banyak gw lewatin

tapi dari semua ituuu yang paling gw pengen adalah...

orang yang ngerasa kalau keberadaan gw ini penting dan di butuhin... someone who saw me when i was hiding and invincible.. and looking for me when i'm not around... =)
hehehehe...

PENGEN HILANG INGATAN!

menghilang lah dari.. kehidupanku..
pergilah dari hati yang tlah hancuur
kehadiran sosokmu kian menyiksaku..
biarkan disini ku menyendiri

pergilah bersamanya disana...
dengan dia yang ada segalanya
bersenang senanglah sepuasnya..
biarkan disini ku menyendiri

terlintas keinginan tuk dapat
hilang ingatan agar semua terlupakan
dan ku berlari sekencang2nya..
tuk melupakanmu yang tlah berpaling...


disini.. kembali..
kau hadirkan ingatan.. yang seharusnya ku lupakan..
dan ku hancurkan adanyaa....

letiihh... disiniii
ku ingin HILANG INGATAN....

aaaghh...!! i'm HEALING my self!!

Heart... we will forget HIM..
You and I.. Tonight...
You must Forget the Warm he Gave
and i Forget the lights...

SHIT HAPPEN!!

yeah.. SHIT is REALLY HAPPEN...!!!
ini sebenernya cerita BASI! tapi karena BLOGS gw sekian lama gw anggurin.. so i'll write it now!

i repeat.. SHIT HAPPEN...
dan gw merasa seperti orang bodoh yang gak sadar selama ini kepalanya selalu di injek injek..
dia lempar kotoran ke muka gw! dan gw baru sadar setelah kotoran itu busuk disana....!
gw gak pernah tulis hal sekejam ini!! i never been this mad!

Gw bukan cuma ngerasa marah tapi juga kecewa banged dan kecewanya ini yang bikin gw sakit!
ok... gw juga pernah bohong.. everybody do it! dan dia selalu bilang bohong kecil sama gede sama aja....!! tapi EFEK NYA GAK SAMA! sakit yang di timbulin jelas BEDA dan sama sekali gak segampang itu di sembuhin

if he feels comfort with her.. so just go back together!!! tapi jangan di belakang gw! jangan injek injek harga diri gue di atas kesenengan kalian!!

pantes aja akhir2 ini sering ada sikap aneh dari kelakuannya....
dan gilanya lagiii!! everything happen only in less than one month...
bahkan kalo di telusuri.. benang merahnya dari sejaaakk sebelum belum nyaa...

gw marah...
kesel..
sedih...
tapi yang paling parah GW KECEWA...
dan gw jadi kehilangan rasa KEPERCAYAAN gw yang buat gw nilainya MAHAL!
dan susah untuk ngebalikin itu semuuaaaa...!

I HATE MY DIARY TOO...
baru beberapa hari lalu sebelum masalah ini kebongkar.. dia tulis permohonan maav di diary gw... dan ternyata... semuanya malah kebongkar!!

gw gak akan pernah nulis Diary lagii...

gw confused... what am i spouse to do..??
stay with him.. or leaving..??

sebagian hati gw berantem
gw jadi gamang!!!!


gw sedihhhh bangeddddddd....

I love him.. tapi tetep aja gw kecewa...

i MISS the OLD us....

i never thought i would be like this...
it's like i lost something that i used to had
i can't read my mind.. i can't read yours
everything no longer brighter...
it goes to something harder...

I'm not ready to this... it's like my heart walks to the end
i try real hard to make it works...
yes... you know i try...
I'm feeling half alive.. and i can't feel you there...
and i don't you if you really care...

so stay with me for a while and try...
to find the feeling you left behind...
please be the one that i used to know...
because it's really hard when i saw you go...

you act like some one i don't even know
you have your own life..
yes i know you do...
but you have me too.. so please treat me like you should
because i love you.. and i want to feel beloved too...


rasa rasanya.. semuanyaaa jadi JAUUHH banged yaaa...
gw pengen bange bilang "Go Slow.. i Fall behind" ke dia.. tapi dia juga ga bakal kasih lagu Time after time ke gw... hahahaha

Let The Little lady TALK!

ahhaha.. gw lagi doyaaannn banged dengerin lagu itu... By Capital Lights...

hmmm.. kalo di pikirin peraaasaannn gw sekarang lagi PENUH PENUH PENUH!!!!

banyak banged masalah yang lagi gue hadapin..

HIS PROBLEM..
MY SISTER PROBLEM...


dan mereka adalah orang orang yang paling gue sayang di BUMI ini! hehehhe...

gw gak pernah menganggap masalah mereka ngeberatin gw.. tapi gw PENGEN BANGED DO SOMETHING supaya bisa jadi kekuatan buat mereka berdua.. hahaha . hehehe

YAh... gw cuma bisa berdoa semoga semua yang mereka jalanin selalu baik baik aja....

Pokoknya buat dua orang itu gw pengen bilang "EVEN THE WHOLE WORLD IS YOUR ENEMY!! I ALWAYS ON YOUR SIDE!!"

heheheh....

WELCOME HOME AY AY...

hehehe.. akhirnya... akhirnya...
sebenarnya udah dari kemaren sih... but FINALLY..
he's HOME!!!...
YUPS... my CHECE is coming back homee....

Kamis kemaren tanggal 22 January 09. gw di bandara dari jam 12 siang buat jemput cece yang pulang dari arab.. heheheh ternyata pesawat ngaret dan baru dateng jam 1.30an.. ghehehehheh...
I'm Very Very Happy to met him again... =) hehehe

abis itu nelpon2in anak anak.. ngabarin kalo che pulang... after that... pada ngumpul ke kelapa gading... rame juga sih.. ada mamahnya che.. gw, cece, kara, uty, ima, sigit, gery, kwiks, davry, Vera, Kaka, Abram. Rameeee lagh.... dan pada ngumpul di Foodcourt Gading. hehehe.

malemnya ke la terazza dan aryo nyusul... heheheh

nanti Photo2nya gw masukin deh..

POKOKNYA gw seneng banged Chece udah pulang... hahahahahah =)

WELCOM HOME AY AY.....

100 Things i really like

1. JESUS
2. My Self
3. Future
4. Kids
5. Cheese
6. Traveling
7. HandPhone
8. Taking Picture of my self
9. DigiCAM
10. Music
11. My BoiFriend
12. Ice Cream Chocochips
13. SUSHI
14. My familly
15. hippopotamus
16. Japan
17. Lollypop
18. Yellow & pInk
19. Pringles Onion and Sour cream
20. Milk chocolate
21. Makarizo Hair repair
22. Clothes & Fashion
23. Facebook
24. Sudoku
25. Online and YM
26. Pet Society (facebook Game)
27. Pizza
27. My friends
28. POPARTS
28. Photoshop
29. Jiro - Glay
30. Handy Happy Tree Friends
31. Badtz Maru
32. Usami Maki (comic Writer)
33. Atshushi Otani (comic Character from Lovely Complex by Aya Nakahara)
34. COMIC BOOKS
35. Beauty Clinic & FACIAL
36. Orange Water U C 1000
37. Movie
38. A Walk To remember (movie)
39. Battle Royale (movie)
40. The Terminal (movie)
41. Serendipitty (movie)
42. Tokio Hotel (band)
43. secondhand Serenade
44. Wedding Dress
45. Avril Lavigne
46. KILL BRAND (clothing Line)
47. Stitch (lilo and Stitch)
48. Clothes with hood and hoodie.
49. Stocking and Legging
50. Cossmetic Store
51. Tyedie
52. BIG Glasses
53. Tiffany Ray (from CHucky the movie)
54. Tatto
55. Pierch
56. Polkadots
57. glay
58. Boys like girls
59. 1 Chorinthias 13 : 4
60. Make up
61. bikini
62. Beach
63. Music Concert.
64. Drawing
65. Rainbow
66. Leopart
67. Smell of DUPA
68. T-Shirt 100% cotton
69. No. 5
70. Onion.
71. Caramelle blended at coffe bean
72. Nickelodeon
73. Lava lamp
74. HOt Spring
75. Hair Treatment
76. Slay Olai (biskuit)
77. Aroma Theraphy
78. DVD
79. DUFAN
80. Pug Dog
81. Furniture store
82. Vans
83. Bill Kaulitz
84. Takoyaki
85. Aceh's Noodles
86. Kerak Telor (jakarta traditional Food)
87. Night
88. Vespa with side car.
89. Stars
90. Youtube
91. Audi TT
92. Onigiri
93. Sleep
94. Lamp.. especialy when christmast
95. Fireworks
96. body massage.
97. Olive oil, baby Oil, apple Oil.
98. deviantart.com
99. Magical Novels like Harry Potter, Bartimaeus Trilogy, Narnia ETC.
100. Shopping.

Simply Questions... =))

3 FAVORITE MUSICIANS:
Jiro, Secondhand Serenade, Andri Satria Permata (my BF)

THE SONG WHICH HAS THE STRONGEST IMPRESSION ON YOU:
Thunder Boys Like Girls , I'm In Love – Glay

THE BEST VIDEOS CLIP EVER?
Itsuka – Glay (specially Jiro's Version ehehhe).

YOUR ROLE MODE is?
Tiffany Ray – BRIDE OF CHUCKY

A PERSON YOU RESPECT:
Me, My sister Geneva

THE DISH YOU'RE GOOD AT COOKING:
Spaghetti.

YOUR HOBBY OTHER THAN MUSIC:
The camera and internet

YOUR AVERAGE SHOWER TIME & WHERE DO YOU START WASHING:
15 mins. Face

FAMILY STRUCTURE:
Father, mother, 8 older sister, 3 older brother

HOW DO YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS CALL YOU:
"De (ade)"

MEDICINE YOU ALWAYS CARRY:
I have everything because I AM a pharmacy

LICENSES YOU HAVE:
Driver's license

ACCESSORIES YOU ALWAYS CARRY:
gelang anyaman.

HISTORY OF PART-TIME JOBS:
At Clothing Store

HISTORY OF PETS:
Little Marmut named Pedro.

WHAT TYPE OF GUY DO YOU PAY ATTENTION:
A person who doesn't have dark skin, funny man, and simple style, Bass player is better.. =) Like Jiro Sama or david Desrosiers.. also my BF. Chece.

A PHRASE YOU USE TO CALLED YOUR BOY:
"Ay" or “hubby Bubby”

IF YOU FIND OUT THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND IS CHEATING:
Headchop! Hahahaha, i will never ever talk to him anymore.

HAS ANYONE EVER TOLD YOU THAT YOU LOOK LIKE:
Hanna Beth.

YOUR FAVORITE SPORT:
i don't really like sport. Hehehe depends on mood.

YOUR LIFE GOAL:
I'm going to beat myself. Ahhaha.... become a Good wife and a good Mother for my Future family.

HOW DO YOU SPEND YOUR DAY OFF:
Sleeping, hangout to mall and go to cosmetics store or clothes store.

YOUR FAVORITE SPOT IN JAKARTA:
Dufan, La Teraza Kelapa Gading =))

THE PRESENT YOU WILL BE HAPPY TO RECEIVE FROM FRIENDS:
Tiffany Doll toys, also Cucky Original Doll toys.

YOUR STRONG POINTS, WEAK POINTS, AND CHARM POINTS:
Strong point-when When i'm in a good mood, weak points – when i'm in bad mood, sad, or Sleepy, Charm points is my eyes and chubby chicks..