You broke my heart when you told me that you were not ready for a relationship. Of course, you didn’t tell me this in the beginning of our friendship when it would have been useful to know. You didn’t tell me early enough that I could potentially stop myself from falling for you.
You wanted me to like you. You wanted me to grow attached to you so that I wouldn’t leave when I heard the news — that you only wanted me for sex.
I never found out that you weren’t looking for a relationship until after we had already hung out more than a few times. After we had already made it clear that we were interested in each other. After we had already flirted. Already kissed. Already slept together. i was crushed, my heart broken but i fell for you already and i told you i like you. you said you dont want relationship "RIGHT NOW"and makes me holding false hope that you want it latter. so i stick around, turns out you dont want relationship "WITH ME"
You knew that you would hurt me in the end, but you did what was best for yourself anyway. you stayed. even after i said I LIKE YOU. you stayed, even after i told you "i dont slept with a "FRIEND"', you stayed
It’s not like you made an honest mistake. You were not under the impression that I was interested in one-night stands. I made it clear what I was looking for from you. You knew that I wanted a relationship.
Until I started acting like your girlfriend. That is when you decided to tell me the truth. That I was never going to be your girlfriend. That I was only a fun distraction. That I was only a good friend.
But you wanted all of the good parts of being in a relationship without any of the bad. You wanted someone who would text you back at 2 AM but not someone you felt forced to send good morning messages to when you woke up. You wanted someone who would have sex with you, but not someone who would wake up next to you. You wanted someone who would give you everything you asked for, but didn’t need to be given anything in return.
At first, I was pissed at you, but now I’m glad that you weren’t looking for a relationship. Because I never want to date someone like you.
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