Some Things I’ve Learned About Love And Dating As An Overthinker. AND lucky me, It changed me to completely different person.

The ability to allow things to flow naturally, organically, and without the interference of neurosis: you either got it or you don’t. 

I worship the goddess who doesn’t watch his Instagram Story, doesn’t feel like texting back, who won’t Netflix and Chill before she is Wined and Dined.

I want to be that powerful woman, and one day I might be, i used to be. but not now, not with him, it’s taken a lot of wrong turns to get me on track. When it comes to givin’ him the cold shoulder, being mysterious, or playin’ hard to get, I’m the worst in the game.

I’m like that kid on your basketball team who has been practicing all year just to have my two minutes in the last quarter. I’ve been shooting foul shots on the weekends, practicing my footwork, learning all the plays, and I know when we are up 50 points one of these times, I will get to show my stuff. Coach calls me in, I’m ready to roll, and the ball lands at my fingertips. You’d think I would learn, that I would know what to do, but wouldn’t, ya know, I take that ball and run as fast as I can to the other team’s basket-not even stopping to dribble.

That’s me. They say don’t hate the playa hate the game, but I think in my case I’m just not much of a playa. Until recently realizing I will most likely die alone, I have never understood what the point of playing this so-called game was.

for me it's always like... If you like someone, tell them. If you miss someone, let them know. If you question something, ask it. If you wanna drunk text someone 25 times, hell, go for it. If you wanna bone, don’t be coy, tell em’! 

One would think that a sense of transparency and honesty would get you nothing but love, right? Wrong. So fucking wrong. I am learning that I need to separate my mind from my heart, especially when it comes to the dating game. I’m sure writing a self-deprecating blog post ruining any smidge of mystery I have left doesn’t help, but hey I’ll take one for the team.

I have asked myself again and again what it is that I am doing wrong, and FINALLY I have found the answers. What men really want, and more importantly what they really don’t want. Allow me to expound on these universal truths in order to save you from the misery I have already suffered. You’re welcome for being a martyr to all anxious single girls in end of 20th.

1. The mind is a complicated thing, but it actually rules your every move when you’re anxious. The tales I tell myself are incredibly detailed, and I pride myself on my ability to create a good story. However, when it comes to boys-don’t let this happen. DO NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. DO NOT LET YOUR MIND GET CARRIED AWAY. Men are simple creatures. If they don’t like you, they are usually pretty upfront about it, or just take the high road and ignore you completely. This one is a funny tale, but it proves the point to be true. Men do not like assumptions and complications.

2. You may know a lot, but you don’t know it all. While there is little gray area to be explored when it comes to a budding relationship between a man and a woman, there are situational factors that undoubtedly come into play. For example, if a boy has just broken up with a girlfriend of three years and tells you he isn’t ready for anything serious, that is probably the truth. No matter your history, no matter how much YOU want it, it really doesn’t matter. A “raw” heart can cause a multitude of complications, the most important being inability to commit or fear of being hurt again.

Me, thinking I am the most important thing in the world and also a prized possession any man would be looking to obtain, ignore all of these situations. I want what I want and don’t care what the other person has to say. This will only push people away and force you to reflect on your own desires. So like, to answer your questions, texting 50 times in a row and calling 5+ on a Saturday night doesn’t make him think “Wow she really likes me” it makes him think “This bitch cray.” You don’t know it all, you can’t force anything if you want it to be good. Shut it down, dude.

3. The biggest, baddest wolf of all the mind fucks: don’t put it all out there, not right away. Sure, you’re quirky and cynical and deep and neurotic and analytical, and those are all great things to be, but not at first. Show yo man that stuff later, after he knows the fluff about you. Let him see how fun you are, how funny you are,  how good at rubbin’ backs you are.
Show him the easy stuff. This protects your heart and peaks his interest-both things that are essential in the first stages of dating. Being your absolute crazy self is freeing and something every woman should have the ability to be in a relationship…but if you want him to think you’re more Jennifer Lawrence than you are Lizzy Borden, cool your shit.

Even though it is incredibly important to remain authentic, stick to your standards, and to let someone love you for you, there is a process that comes with getting to know someone. I like to go all in, whether it’s with drinking beers, playing cards, competing in a dance-off, or falling for someone. I’ve come to find out it pays off to go all in with some of those things, but not all (namely drinking beers and falling for someone). Stop with the No Chill, and start training your brain. This doesn’t just apply to boys, and actually works in most life instances, it just so happens men are like top three on my priority list.

Save your 300 pages novels for later, stop overthinking, and as hard as it is sometimes, let things just HAPPEN. Believe me, I’m a seasoned vet on this topic and have lost plenty of good men to the war in my brain.
but now, when i am completely different person, i am transform to powerful woman, goddess, whatever you say, you have no idea how many time the situation turn around lately.

Twin Flame Runner and Chaser..

The twin flame connection is said to be the reunion of two “souls” that were split from a single source of energy, who then travel through many lifetimes until they are ready to reconnect.

One of the most interesting yet often overlooked aspects of a twin flame relationship is the phase of the runner and chaser.

During this phase, one soul will abandon the other, seemingly without notice or reason. The relationship seems to be over for good—and it very well may be. Letting go is also an important part of the path of love.

The reality is twins can come back together—in kindness and mutual respect—and begin to progress through the stages together.

When the “runner” soul takes off, it is often done out of feeling overwhelmed, not worthy, or confused by his or her connection—a connection that feels markedly different than anything they’ve ever experienced. They may not be leaving the relationship for good. They may simply need the time and space to process their feelings.

Yet, the twin that is left behind may feel abandoned.

When this runner and chaser phase begins, it’s an ego trip for the chaser. So when the runner leaves, they can be relentless in their pursuit. The chasing isn’t done out of the best interest of both souls, but rather because the chaser has their own issues surrounding abandonment, loneliness, and worthiness. What’s interesting is that resolving these issues is the purpose of this phase.

At the beginning of this runner-chaser phase, neither twin is able to process these emotions—instead, the runner hurts the chaser by wanting to move on, while the chaser blames the runner for their pain and projects his or her wounding onto their twin.

Luckily, this difficult process is the purpose of this phase in the twin flame connection.

The number one thing we all can do here is simply to let the twin soul run, if that is what he or she needs to do. We can let go of chasing, pleading, or even rationalizing why they should come back. In order to let go, we need to stop projecting our hurt and blame onto our twin.

Here’s a key point: the chaser twin has to learn to separate his or her desires from that of their ego. Our ego wants what it wants now, and when that doesn’t happen it blames the runner.

And so the runner and chaser phase can be healed within the chaser—not just the runner.

Once this twin can listen to their own emotions and process how they are feeling, they begin to heal their wounds or conditioning. This catharsis is when many twin flames come back together—and why some of us (rightly or wrongly) let go of this type of love.

Once the chaser soul stops pursuing the runner, and learns to let go of the ego’s desired outcome, the runner soul may begin to feel the peace necessary to work on the original issues that caused them to leave in the first place.

This doesn’t mean that the twins can’t communicate, be friends, or even see one another during this phase—but it does mean that it has to be done without any sort of expectations, including ever coming together again.

The thing with our twin is that, one way or another, we learn from them because only in this way may we let our love enlighten us.

After the chaser twin has stopped chasing, they can still reaffirm their unconditional love, presence and even support to the runner in a newly non-threatening manner.

Yet, even within that, space needs to be given.

The thing that many of us forget—twin flames included—is that what is meant for us truly won’t ever miss us, so there is never a need to rush anything, or push it—everything happens in the way that it is meant to.

If twins can learn to lean into the spaces that this phase creates, instead of fearing the challenges that come up, then we may find that it is in these times of separation that the greatest amount of personal growth occurs.

Because the biggest thing to remember during all of this is that things will unfold the way they are meant to.

How to Unlove Him

Sountrack of this post: Back to you by Selena Gomez 

Even when I try my hardest not to imagine his face, not to conjure up his smile in the middle of a peaceful dream, there he is again. He seems to wander into the most unsuspecting of places.

It’s hard to fall out of love with someone.

This is what I tell myself when I need comforting the most. Sure, the two of us have gone our separate ways, distracted ourselves with different things. After all, half of seperating is hoping you’ll fall back into each other; the other half is pretending you’ve moved on. Until you actually make it. Until you take a deep breath and realize your heart doesn’t ache the same way anymore.

But it’s never easy.

Forgetting is a hard fight.. Letting go of love is not a quick process. Not something you can toss to the side or ignore. It’s kissing someone and seeing his face. It’s trying to remember the words to my favorite song without picturing his hands intertwined with mine across the center console of his car. Nearly impossible.

You can move on, but you can’t really unlove someone. 

This is what I learned trying to rewrite poetry into lines and verses that didn’t sound like him and I. When I tried taking pictures down from my walls as if I could somehow erase the memories, make them less painful somehow.

But I didn’t want to.

See, I don’t think I can unlove him. Not yet. 

There’s something about falling for someone that changes the person you are. You learn the little quirks about yourself, the little things that make you tick, the little wants you have, the little ways you fall in love with yourself and another person. Simultaneously. Wonderfully.

I don’t know if there’s anything wrong with loving a person, even after they’re gone.

Not in unhealthy ways, not in bad ways, not in ways that drag you down and keep you from finding something new, finding yourself again. But when I think about what I’ve loved and lost, who I’ve loved and lost, I don’t regret a thing.

And I can’t pretend I didn’t love him, didn’t love every kiss, every laugh we shared, every time a song played on the radio, or every stupid photo.

I don’t think I’ll ever unlove him, ever erase our memories, or find a place where he doesn’t exist, hasn’t existed before. 

So there is no way you can UNLOVE people just like that, even if they forced you, even if you want too.. it’s all take a longer fight, a longer journey, harder process. And what you can do is be okay with that, live every moment, feel everything. And be ready to open up to new chapter in your life.

Yes, I will fall in love again. And yes, there will be a day when the love between him and I doesn’t cross my mind. When another’s arms around my shoulders are all I need, all I think about. When he becomes only the pictures in a photo album, a smile of remembrance that doesn’t make dizzy.

I will still love him, even then. But that will be the love we both lost.

And I’ll be okay with that.

But I know I’m lying to myself if I say I can unlove him, piece by piece. That I can unlearn the curve of his lips, the creases of his eyelids, the way his hands tenderly touched my hips.

You cannot unlove a person. You just let go. You just cease to remember until they become a distant, pixelated image in your mind. 

And you make room for more pictures, more photo frames, more scrapbooks on the shelf. Never forgetting who and what you loved, or who you were. But giving yourself room to grow again, room to fall, room to start anew.

I dont even know I can write this.

soundtrack of this post: Little Do You Know by Alex and Sierra, i wrote this while listen to them.

if I’m being honest, there was always a home in my heart for you. And though we never made it past getting high in my studio and falling into each other’s ocean, your lips tasted like honey on mine and I still think about how they’d feel between my thighs.

I touched you once and felt like I had touched you a thousand times before. I’ve felt the energy dancing just below the surface of my skin ever since. a new kind of starving.

I think about you often, by the way. And even though you call me trouble and have this theory that all you’ll do is fuck me up in the end, I have this theory of my own that, maybe, just this once, I wouldn’t mind getting fucked up. At least it would cause me to feel something again. At least it would mean that somehow, in some way, you were mine. Even if it was only for a few moments. Even if it means we never make it past tangled limbs and heavy breathing. Even if my bed is the only place we ever meet. Even if we’re just using each other for our bodies, hoping to find comfort when all we’ve ever known is emptiness and destruction. Loneliness and sadness.

Even if I’m detrimental to your health, and you to mine, I’ve become so accustomed to stab wounds and broken lungs that I’m willing to take my chances with you. I’ve spent too many nights on my own, and I can’t seem to not think about your lips each time I close my eyes. So I’ll take your warnings with a grain of salt and let you push me into your bed and pull me into your arms and paint galaxies in my eyes but I can’t promise that I won’t lay there connecting those stars for the rest of my life.

You’re all danger and empty words and I’m all pain and broken promises and together we can create a storm so violent it would put hurricanes to shame and I think maybe we may be onto something.

so, take the chance... don't be scare.. I think that maybe you may not be as broken as you think. I think that maybe there’s nothing wrong with feeling sad and nostalgic and like there’s no damn place for you in this world. Like maybe you accidentally built your home in a living, breathing human and now they’re gone and you haven’t stopped looking for solace since.

And maybe I’m that comfort that you’ve been searching your whole life for. Maybe when you put your lips on mine that night so long ago the planets aligned, and Mercury has been in retrograde ever since we’ve been apart.

Or maybe I’m wrong. And maybe I’m just desperately searching for the answer to why I can’t help but look at you like you put the goddamn stars in the sky. Maybe being lonely isn’t any different from being alone, and maybe I’m just done being anywhere but your side.

And, the thing is, I can’t help but picture how you’d look crawling on top of me in bed or how your hands would feel around my throat. and I’m not so sure how someone could get under my skin so easily but what I do know is at least if blood is drawn this time, I wouldn’t mind it so much. And by the way, I wouldn’t mind drowning in the sound of your  silent scream.

I know you say you’re dangerous and I know i may be flirting with destruction but this can either be really fucking bad or really damn good and I’m willing to take that risk. but apparently you wouldn't.

Note: My feeling are mine, you force me to forget, but forgetting is a harder fight. 

i dont blame you for what i feel, please don't blame me for how you feel.

This Is The Ugliest Thing About You, Based On Your Zodiac Sign

Aries

(March 21st to April 19th)

Aries are HUGE babies when things don’t go their way. It’s not uncommon for them to throw super not-age-appropriate tantrums when someone doesn’t listen. Not only is this behavior way childish, it’s SO unappealing.

Taurus

(April 20th to May 21st)

For someone who takes great pride in being so frugal and good with money, Taurus can be VERY materialistic. It’s cool to appreciate nice things and have refined taste, but it’s not cool to be consumed with it. Being so obsessed with how things look ironically makes them kind of ugly.

Gemini

(May 22nd to June 21st)

Geminis are sooooo two-faced and makes them rather untrustworthy. It’s not like they always do it on purpose, but their ability to turn on a dime and suddenly be someone totally different freaks people out. It’s not necessarily an ugly trait, but it’s unsettling. That’s for sure.

Cancer

(June 22nd to July 22nd)

You know the Kim Kardashian ugly crying meme? If you looked up Cancer in the dictionary, that’s the exact photo you’d see. Cancers are literally ugly criers. And cry about EVERYTHING.

Leo

(July 23rd to August 22nd)

Leos are egotists. Sure, it varies depending on the individual Leo. But bottom line, Leos LOVE being told how wonderful they are. And who wouldn’t? The ugliness comes into play when someone doesn’t give them the attention they so desperately crave. Nothing changes a Leo’s fun, charming personality quicker than someone ignoring them. Yiiiiikes.

Virgo

(August 23rd to September 22nd)

Virgos can be so, so judgmental to the point of it teetering into cruelty. Because they hold themselves to super high standards and expect everyone else to follow suit, they can be totally ruthless in making fun of someone. If you’re around a Virgo, there’s a 99.9% chance they are silently picking you apart.

Libra

(September 23rd to October 22nd)

In general, Libras are fairly easy to get along with. They are fair and kind. BUT they can be total slobs. They will gorge on fast food and overindulge. A Libra is definitely the one going through the Jack in the Box drive-thru at 2 am.

Scorpio

(October 23rd to November 22nd)

Scorpios are cold as ICE. They’ll chew you up and spit you out without even blinking.

Sagittarius

(November 23rd to December 21st)

TOTALLY arrogant! Their confidence can quickly turn into pure narcissism and it becomes majorly intolerable. Nobody wants to be around someone so self-absorbed.

Capricorn

(December 22nd to January 20th)

Capricorns can be big snobs. They’ll turn their nose up at things they determine to be beneath them.

Aquarius

(January 21st to February 18th)

They are total weirdos. But not in a charming TV sitcom way. They’re just…off.

Pisces

(February 19th to March 20th)

They are HUGE flakes. A Pisces is often so busy swimming around in their own dreamy, imaginary world that they totally forget about real plans they’ve made. They’ll cancel on you an hour before they’re supposed to show up. Or worse, sometimes they don’t even get back to you at all. 

Letter to the next

One day you'll meet a girl who will talk about the world as if she's lived a thousand lives, and she'll see things in such a different perspective that you'll question everything you know. She'll describe things in words you've never heard, but they sound so beautiful coming out of her mouth that you'll look them up and start using them yourself. 

She'll be curious and have the wonder of achild, and the phrase "curiosity killed the cat" will take on a new meaning when people tell her things she doesn't want to hear and it makes her heart break in half, so you end up holding her and picking up the pieces. She'll bring out a passion in you that no one knew you had and she'll make you feel something that you've never felt. 

She'll hide her face when you see her with her hair down and no makeup.

She'll act a little crazy and ignite a fire in your bones that burns so bad it'll make you want to run for your life. Don't Don't you fucking dare. Stare at her even if she's so bright it burns, hold her close even though you're terrified that if you touch her the wrong way she'll break. Kiss her so hard that you see stars, trace the scars that litter her body, do not let her feel ashamed. 

She makes you feel vulnerable, and it will scare the living hell out of you. You're not used to being out of control, let the new experience teach you lessons. It won't make you a hero to leave because you think you'll break her, you're doing her no favours by killing something that hasn't yet been brought to life. So don't run. Don't run away from what scared you, because you have the potential to be so much more than a coward who breaks her heart. Love her for as long as the universe allows because if you don't I swear you'll regret it.

Signs You’re Experiencing What’s Known As A ‘Twin Flame’ Relationship

There tends to be a lot of confusion about what a “twin flame” relationship really is. Unlike “soul mates,” which are our perfect matches (or our spiritual family) twin flames are our perfect mirrors, if you survive this, this will be the best ending, but sometime twin flame not always ended up together for so many reason, they will united only if their sould both ready, in this live or in next life. 

Relationships with twin flames tend to be on-again-off-again, intensely passionate, and sometimes intensely painful. Twin flames help us awaken like nobody else, and they ultimately serve to show us who we really are. you could be Here, facing your twin flame right now and didn't know it, here's a few of the main signs that you’ve run into one:

1. You are intensely drawn to them. Without any real cause or reason, you feel as though you’ve known this person before, even if you just met.

2. They have opened you up to a completely new way of thinking. With them, you exchange ideas, beliefs, religion, and so on. You’ve “awakened” because of their love.

3. They come in and out of your life. You’re together, and then you’re not, and then you are again. Despite the fact that you connect to each other more than anything, one of you (the “runner”) seems to not be able to handle it, and dissolve the relationship. It’s almost as though your connection is too intense for you to be consistently together. until they know and accept about Twin Flame, they will not understand why they will just running from confusion why they are so drawn to you, staked you from shadow, but they resist to be with you because being with you make them feel intense and they scare.

4. They feel like home. Upon meeting them, you immediately sense that you’ve known this person before. Your connection is too intense for you to have just been strangers – there is a deep feeling of familiarity when you’re with them.

5. You are the epitome of yin and yang. They seem just like your other half, the parts of you that were missing all along. (What you’ve yet to realize is that they are the parts of you you’ve yet to know.) you are diffrent but you seems to complete each other, sometimes it scares you.

6. Looking back, you see that the period of time right after you’re with them is always defined by change. They bring about a lot of intense transformation in your life, sometimes painfully so.

7. You will find yourself becoming almost irrationally emotional when you’re with them. (These are the feelings and energies that have been in suppression, which they are there in part to help you recognize and heal.)

8. Your bond is instantaneous, and your relationship moves very quickly. Right off the bat, you “click” as though you’ve known one another forever. This only grows over time, and the more you get to know about them, the more absolutely in love you are.

9. Though you experience incredible passion for this person, there is an equal amount of worry and uncertainty. You may find yourself questioning a lot, asking yourself whether or not this is really love, or really what you want for your life.

10. It seems like you have this profound connection that must be destined, but you come into one another’s life at the wrong time, or something else stands in the way of you being together. 

11. You are more than just lovers. You are one another’s teachers, best friends, therapists, and so on. You have such a deep and layered connection that you do a lot more for one another than just be romantic.

12. It seems like you’re always pulled back to them in one way or another.

13. Your relationship can be tumultuous at times. This is because your twin flame serves to show you everything that needs to be healed within you. This is not to be confused with “love” being painful. Love is not painful. Everything that stands in the way can be, though.

14. One of you is more “spiritual” than the other. One is more soulful, the other more practical. You teach one another the virtues of how you think and behave – that is part of your purpose.

15. You feel very attuned to them, almost telepathically. You can feel what they’re feeling, or know what they’re thinking. It’s as though you are one. you know when they sad, and can feel when they angry no matter the distance. Have you ever feel sad with no reason? because somewhere somehow your twin flame experience that feeling. 

16. When you look into their eyes, you feel like you see family, or your own child. This is your soul recognizing someone it’s known before, or someone it’s very close to.

17. For as different as you are, you have many fundamental things in common. Maybe you were born on their favorite brother’s birthday, or you met on a very significant weekend. Maybe you both went to the same type of elementary and high school, or you had the same college major, you have exactly same favorite food, or extremely same taste of hobby. One or two of these things could just be coincidence, but with a twin flame, you’ll probably have many overlapping similarities.

18. They show you what you most desire as well as what you most fear. Their purpose is not (and has never been) to make you feel “settled” or comfortable, but to help introduce you to yourself. 

19. The twin flame runner/chaser

To make things complicated, there is the twin flame runner and chaser phase within each union. While the reason behind the roles are unknown, it seems it’s part of the yin yang energy creation, there is always one partner who is constantly afraid of the connection, often the male energy, and the other is the validator, the female energy. as you can see there are many reasons why your twin flame can become the runner, either they are not understanding what’s really going on and have become confused, or they are in another relationship and have another energy in their life.

20. when your body intertwine The passion magnetic connection are so stong like magnet and steel.

When you Can Not Hate people that Hurt you.

Little do you know
How I’m breaking while you fall asleep
Little do you know
I’m still haunted by the memory
Little do you know
I’m trying to pick myself from piece by piece
Little do you know
I need a little more time
Underneath it all I’m held captive by the hole inside
I’ve been holding back
For the fear that you might change your mind
I’m ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know
I need a little more time

Away, away
I love you like you've never felt the pain, away
I promise you don’t have to be afraid, away
The love you see right here stays so lay your head on me

Little do you know
I know you’re hurt while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are solely drowning me
Little do you know
I’m trying to make it better piece by piece
Little do you know
I, I love you till the sun dies

Letter from ALL THE GIRL IN THE WORLD that stuck to ALMOST RELATIONSHIP and get LEFT in the cold....

Source from ThoughCatalog

You broke her heart when you told her that you were not ready for a relationship. Of course, you didn’t tell her this in the beginning of our friendship when it would have been useful to know. You didn’t tell her early enough that she could potentially stop herselfg from falling for you.

When you say you aren’t ready for anything serious, you’re telling her that she’s good enough to sleep with but that she isn’t good enough to date.

You’re fooling her into believing that she isn’t the kind of girl who deserves a relationship. That she doesn’t deserve good morning texts and hand holding and kisses in front of your friends. That she only deserves half.

you’re telling her that your needs matter more than her needs. That you think you deserve what you want from her, but she doesn’t deserve what she wants from you.

you aren’t making her like you any less. You’re making her like herself less. You’re making her question everything she says and does because:

why don’t you want to be with her officially? Why do you spend so much time with her if she isn’t enough for you? Why why why…?

you said you dont want relationship "RIGHT NOW"and makes her holding false hope that you want it latter. so she stick around, turns out you dont want relationship "WITH ME"

But you wanted all of the good parts of being in a relationship without any of the bad. You wanted someone who would text you back at 1 AM but not someone you felt forced to send good morning messages to when you woke up. You wanted someone who would have sex with you, but not someone who would wake up next to you. You wanted someone who would give you everything you asked for, but didn’t need to be given anything in return

she'd try to understand what you want, you are not ready, you guys are just friend. 

But you dont put little effort to understand what she want. she want someone to talk to. As friends. Not someone who can just ignore her whenever they feel like too. Friends don’t do that

When you guys stopped talking, you lost someone that you pictured yourself hooking up with one day in the future. 

She was the only one who lost a friend. lost person that she trusted so much, she opened up to you. she's the one who lost something important.

WHEN YOU BACK FOR BRIEF TIME.YOU Will OPEN A FAKE HOPE, TELLING her that the two of you WILL BE FRIENDS AGAIN just to get her temporary back to you.

The you go again!! And blaming her because you feel uneasy. YOU OPEN AND SHUT THE DOOR AS YOU PLEASE.  And now you blame me! Worst, makes her BLAME HER SELF! 

She's DONE blaming her self! she's done Questioning what she did wrong. What could she do different! 

Now she make a lot of REAL FRIENDS. she learn and know “HOW” FRIENDS act. 
So Bullshit “we are ‘FRIENDS’” on your term! 

you’re playing mind games. You’re fucking with heart. 

FUCK YOU!