That Doesn’t Scare Me

There aren’t enough words in the English dictionary or enough combinations thereof to accurately describe the number of feelings that I feel for you.

I’ve always known you were special. I’ve always known that you weren’t just a fling and that our feelings weren’t fleeting in the way that most young love is. 

You have the power to completely obliviate every ounce of happiness I hold in my body and that doesn’t scare me. It doesn’t scare me that you could ruin my entire world, shatter the floor beneath me if you wanted to because I know that you like me in the infinite way I like you.

I see it when you look at me. You look in my eyes as if they were some dark abyss. As if my eyes held the endlessness of space and you smile. You hold my hand and hold it tight as if I might run away or disappear.  You accept my love and breathe it in the way everyone else inhales oxygen. never feel its too much that suffocated you.

What we have doesn’t make sense to most people, they might think its too much too soon, but it’s because I know they haven’t found what you are to me. They haven’t found that one person that makes them feel infinitely happy. I know that finding you this young was a blessing.

I had started to question my faith and the fact that anything good could happen to me and you came along and proved that I had to struggle to get where I am today and it was worth it.