One day you’re gonna meet someone who simply feels like home.

There’s gonna be one person who breaks through every wall you have and you’re left with these raw emotions you didn’t even know you were capable of feeling.

And you’re gonna look at them knowing well they aren’t perfect. But regardless of that, your flaws complement each other in a way that it all makes sense.

You’ll talk about dreams and ambitions like you haven’t before. You’ll talk about disappointments and fears you didn’t even know of.

You talk about insecurities and mistakes and there before you is someone who doesn’t judge you for any of it.

You find yourself remembering every little detail. From the first time you met and the first words they said.

And it surprises you because we go through motions in life seeing so many faces and having so many interactions but somehow you remember every detail of this one.

One day you’re gonna meet someone who simply feels like home.

One day you’re gonna meet someone who you don’t just want to spend the night with but who you look forward to waking up and sharing your morning with.

This person is different because there is gonna be one person that is able to break through the bullshit you sell to the world.

They look you in the eyes and know when you’re lying.
They look you in the eyes and know what you are thinking and feeling before you even say.
it feels like they can read your expression without even trying.
You don't have to explain yourself
You don't have to hide your mind

There’s a connection there you’ll never understand. But you’ll just be happy you met someone who can share in that.

And they’ll let you into their world, too.

This is scary but I am learning....

I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe again. It’s okay to believe that someone finds you adorable and special. It’s okay to believe the sweet words someone tells you instead of trying to find the lies in their words. It’s okay to believe that someone wants you the same way you want them. I’m slowly learning that history doesn’t always repeat itself. That love doesn’t always mean tears, heartbreak and rejection. That for once, a happy ending is right around the corner.

I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to trust again. Trust that you can be enough for someone and they won’t have to look away. Trust that you don’t have to compete for their love and affection because they already know your worth. They already know your value. Trust that sometimes they’re the ones afraid of losing you. Trust that sometimes your biggest fears are theirs too. I’m slowly learning that trust doesn’t always have to be broken and that every now and then a person can promise you the world and actually gives it to you.

I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to be happy again. It’s okay to let the happiness linger and the butterflies in your stomach dance. It’s okay to enjoy being happy without wondering when it will fade away or how long it will last. It’s okay to believe that it could last, that it’s not that elusive dream you’ve been chasing anymore. It’s okay to believe that happiness found you and it wants to stick around this time.

I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to love again without thinking about how or when it will end. I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe in love one more time without trying to protect my heart from being broken. It’s okay to trust again that someone can truly love you and stay with you every time you think they’re going to leave. I’m slowly learning that sometimes love stays and it exceeds all your expectations. 

A Thank You Letter To The Man Who Found Me When I Was Broken

I never thought of myself as worthy of love. I wasn’t sure when you came along that I was capable of receiving love, let alone giving it out in return.

When you found me I was already withered away into a shell of who I once was. Just a frail, single teenage mother trying to pick up all the pieces that were recently broken. I was told, “There’s something wrong with you. ” So thank you for showing me that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me and that even I am worthy of love. Thank you for helping me pick up every single piece of me off the ground.

You were there through almost everything. You pointed out every single flaw of mine and showed me that even those were worth loving. One by one you took down every brick that surrounded my heart. It was the only thing left I had in me because it was where I kept my family, and I couldn’t let anything happen to the very last piece of me. The only way for you to get in was to break my walls down slowly, so thank you for taking the bricks down to make room for more than just one love, because my heart craved you.

When we got in our first argument, I was sure you were going to run for the hills, but you didn’t. You stayed. Even in our arguments, you had love in your voice. That was something very unfamiliar to me. I never thought it was possible to show love through fighting, but I’ve learned that with you, anything is possible.

Thank you for showing me the parts of myself that were hidden. The best parts of me. Thank you for falling in love with all of me, the good parts of me, the ugly parts of me, the flawed parts of me. Thank you for teaching me how to love. I know without a doubt I’m doing it right because I’ve had the best teacher. I wish everyone had someone like you in their life because the world would be a better place if they had more people like you in it.

That Doesn’t Scare Me

There aren’t enough words in the English dictionary or enough combinations thereof to accurately describe the number of feelings that I feel for you.

I’ve always known you were special. I’ve always known that you weren’t just a fling and that our feelings weren’t fleeting in the way that most young love is. 

You have the power to completely obliviate every ounce of happiness I hold in my body and that doesn’t scare me. It doesn’t scare me that you could ruin my entire world, shatter the floor beneath me if you wanted to because I know that you like me in the infinite way I like you.

I see it when you look at me. You look in my eyes as if they were some dark abyss. As if my eyes held the endlessness of space and you smile. You hold my hand and hold it tight as if I might run away or disappear.  You accept my love and breathe it in the way everyone else inhales oxygen. never feel its too much that suffocated you.

What we have doesn’t make sense to most people, they might think its too much too soon, but it’s because I know they haven’t found what you are to me. They haven’t found that one person that makes them feel infinitely happy. I know that finding you this young was a blessing.

I had started to question my faith and the fact that anything good could happen to me and you came along and proved that I had to struggle to get where I am today and it was worth it.