Anxiety Tells Me So Many Lies I Have To Talk Myself Out Of Believing.

Anxiety tells me people don’t want to stay but feel they have to out of a sense of obligation. 

Anxiety tells me they wish they could leave but they are afraid of what it will do to me.

Anxiety tells me people aren’t choosing you, they just feel sorry for you. 

Anxiety tells me the only reason they are answering is that they’re polite. 

Anxiety tells me everyone waiting for the right moment to exit with grace.

It tells me I’m a burden. people hiding me because they are ashamed to have me in their lives.

Anxiety tells me, I might end up with another rejection.

Anxiety tells me I will never be as good as the past.. and definitely not better than the future. 

That I’m weird.

That I’m unwanted.

Unloved.

Crazy.

Anxiety tells me I need to keep apologizing.

Anxiety tells me I need to overcompensate so people have a reason to stay. I need to put effort more. love more. showing more. settle for less.

Anxiety tells me I am asking too much of what I deserved.

Anxiety tells me they aren’t answering because they don’t like me.

That they are deliberately ignoring me because of something I’ve done or said wrong.

Then anxiety reminds me of everything in the past that could apply to that scenario.

Anxiety tells me when they really get to know me, they’re going to hate me. 

Anxiety tries to teach me to hate myself.

Anxiety fixates upon my flaws saying if I were different maybe I’d be happier.

Anxiety tells me this is my fault.

Anxiety adds fuel to a fire that is self-doubt and criticism.

Anxiety keeps me up at night fixating upon everything I’ve done wrong or things I could do better.

Anxiety tells me I’m not good enough. 

Smart enough.

Pretty enough.

Normal enough.

Successful enough.

Anxiety tells me I’m going to fail.

That everyone I love will leave.

Anxiety tells me the love I have to give is not enough.

Then I wake up the next day still tired trying to counter that voice that haunts me.

Anxiety beats me up and punishes me for mistakes I can’t forgive myself for.

Anxiety tells me every worst-case scenario will come true.

Every worst fear will come to life.

Anxiety makes me feel like I’m always waiting. And I don’t even know what I’m waiting for I’m just uneasy.

I’m always comparing myself to someone and falling short.

Anxiety tells me I’ll never be good enough.

So I try so incredibly hard.

And most people are impressed.

Everyone but me.

I’ll never be a good enough friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend.

Anxiety tells me to hate myself for this. And as I break down and cry alone for things I can’t understand, anxiety knocks me when I’m already on my knees saying I deserve this.


But then everyone once in a while I come across someone whose voice speaks louder than doubts and questioning that goes on in my head. Anxiety might tell me, they’re here because they feel bad. But then those people counter those thoughts with a hug, a kind word, a conversation. And I realize anxiety might be forever a part of your life but there are people who want to be too.

“This isn’t love yet,” But it’s a little close to that.

Without a warning, the thought of him enters your brain and stays there day and night. You try to remember the last time you felt this dizzy and conflicted and torn. You close your eyes and embrace the silence around you, hoping to understand your emotions. And it’s somehow working. You’re starting to figure out why you suddenly can’t stop thinking about him.

“This isn’t love yet,” you tell yourself. But it’s a little closer to that. You’re a few moments away from completely tearing your walls down. The logical part of you is slowly disappearing. And you’re acting like a kid again. You catch yourself smiling for no reason at all. You rest your chin above your hands, unconsciously daydreaming.

“How did this happen?” you ask yourself. You look back on the day you first met when he shook your hand when you first heard him speak. Maybe his touch melted the coldness in your heart and you weren’t aware of it at that time.

Maybe when he seated inches from you, he was throwing signs that he was interested in getting to know you. Or maybe when you complimented him for his gesture, the universe decided that both of you could be a thing.

You wish there’s an easy way to describe what you’re feeling right now.  But that will be risky. You’re not bold enough to make that big move. You’re scared that you’ll only subject yourself to humiliation. 

Your bad experiences in the past weaken your confidence. You have so many what ifs. There are hundreds of questions swarming your brain at this point. Your gut encourages you to look for more proof, to give yourself more time. The deeper you try to find answers, the more confused you get.

The truth is, you’re scared. You don’t want to gamble. You have become so good at being alone. You have found a home in your own body. And you’re convinced that you don’t need anyone else. The peace that resides within you is threatened by a potential love story and you don’t know how to handle the issue properly. It’s hard to let someone in when you’ve been used to ignoring knocks on your door. It’s hard to let someone help you be warm when you’ve been comfortable being cold for so long.

You want to give love a try but only if there’s a guarantee. In the meantime, you’ll play it safe. This is how you protect yourself because you’ve learned your lesson. The fact that you think about him once in a while means he’s beginning to become an important person to you.

A pang of guilt hits your stomach because you’re not sure if constantly thinking about him is healthy. You’re not sure if making him a major part of your life is necessary.

That maybe there’s a future and you don’t have to worry about waking up to an empty bed anymore. You need not to be afraid of trusting someone again.

You deserve a love that feels like home.

You know when you’re wondering what love is supposed to feel like?

When you’re wondering how will you know this is your person? The one you’re meant to do life with.

It won’t just be a deep, unspoken love that you share. It’ll be home.

Not the kind that sits two up, two down, with a cute little driveway, and a beautiful, petal pink rose garden out back.

I mean home.

You deserve a love that feels like home.

When you travel to new cities, countries, and continents. And it doesn’t matter if you find yourself baking on the white sands of Sri Lanka, sleeping under a twinkling blanket of stars in Iceland, or trekking through dense tropical jungles in Bali. Because it doesn’t really matter where you are in the world. As long as he’s there by your side, you somehow still feel like you’re home. 

When you’re convinced he’s known you since birth, even though you lived 25 full years without him. But it must be that you were two souls born from the same star.

That moment you randomly wrap your arms around one another on a Sunday morning. For no reason at all other than wanting your heart to be a little closer to his than it was a minute ago.

A love that feels like home is when you feel wholly at ease in their presence. Comfortable in silence and sweatpants. At peace speaking your mind, and sharing little pieces of your heart.

When they’re lounging beside you on the sofa, both of your minds someplace else, and you feel just as cozy as when you’ve got a cup of hot, cinnamon coffee snuggled between your hands.

you feel safe. You know everything will be okay. Because he’s there.

When people ask you how you know, and what it feels like, and you can’t quite find the words, because there are no words that do this feeling justice.

All you can say is when you’re with them, it feels like you’re home.

And it doesn’t matter if the foundations have a little wobble, or the walls start to crack, or everything starts to look a lot less shiny and polished than it was all those years ago. What matters is that you’re both committed to sticking around, and pouring your heart and soul into this home, instead of looking around for a sparkly new one.

This is what love is supposed to feel like.

And this is how you’ll know.

You’re home.

My Heaven My Hell...

Loving me is learning patience to handle my sunsets, the aftermath of its beauty.

It’s having the patience to endure my silent treatments without abandonment because sometimes I don’t know how to put aside my pride and apologize. It’s stubborn nights and my fistful of anger I haven’t learned how to fully let go of. It’s my outbursts of sadness that are misconstrued for stuck up or arrogant.

It’s blue when all you see is red…and it’s the words I wish I could take back that are said.

Laughing at the wrong times, and too many curse words. It’s anxiety and paranoia of all those moments I put my trust into someone only to watch it shatter.

But loving me is also watching the sunrise, so tastefully with every color waiting to blossom. 

It’s listening ears when all you need is a friend. It’s loyalty and support when the world beats you down to the dirt and no one else cares to stand by you. It’s acceptance regardless of your flaws because I’m too grown to change anyone. It’s an abandonment of selfishness when you feel you have no more to give.

What’s mine is yours. What’s mine is ours. 

It’s a heart that would hurt to hurt you. It’s easing your mind when the others have played with it as if you were a jigsaw puzzle. It’s calm days as I grab you closer to cuddle you in ways that scream affection words can’t put emphasis on. How about those spontaneous nights I draw out the daredevil in you, just to make this life worth a little something.

Loving me is fire beneath the water. It’s not easy, but it’s authentic and real. It’s the mix of a season and you don’t fully appreciate the summer without a little frostbite.

Loving the Girl Who Constantly Needs Reassurance ...

I have only learned about love from those who never loved me. Needing reassurance isn’t because I fail to trust, it’s because I’ve been hurt too many times and need to know that you won’t be the same.

It’s a difficult thing, to find someone who truly wants you as much as you want them. Anxiety mixes the emotions of my life so much sometimes, that I have no idea what I’m feeling at all. I feel heavy and lost in a world I don’t seem to understand anymore. I let you in on these crushing thoughts so you can push them away and show me the truth that surrounds us. 

My anxiety isn’t that I can’t love you, it’s that I will love something so much and be left empty. My reassurance isn’t because I don’t trust you, it’s because so many others couldn’t understand that I can’t comprehend how you still smile at me after every kiss. 

I will never fit in with what is considered ‘normal’ in this world, and I’m glad. I live a life that I try to keep as authentic and true in what seems like a very fake world, and because of that, I love as authentic and as truly as I can.  Loving a girl who needs reassurance won’t be empty, you see, a day will never go by that I won’t say “I care about you” and mean it, hoping you will never have to question your place in my life.

I will be patient with you, and understanding of things I may not be able to always understand. I will be calm in hectic situations if you ask me to be, and I will listen to the early hours of the morning if that’s what it takes to calm your mind. I ask that you remain patient with me when I ask a year from now if you still like me, and be understanding when I voice a fear of mine that makes absolutely no sense.

Every time you are able to hold my hand and squeeze me back into reality, it’s just more proof that you are the good one for me, that the feeling of you holding my heart isn’t scary, but comforting. Loving a girl like me who needs reassurance will never be a chore, because every day you do, is a day that my heart for you grows and can be shown with no barriers of fear. 

It’s taking me a long time that being hurt and learning to love is the beauty of being human, but it doesn’t mean it isn’t scary. I will always be honest with you, and being vulnerable will come with time. The more you give to me, the more I will be able to share with you.

I have found happiness within you, and it’s time I let go of the parts of me that hurt me- that hurt my possibility of happiness and let them heal. I know that healing takes time, but in that time of healing, I will become the person I have meant to be all along. 

Loving a girl who needs reassurance isn’t a chore, it’s a journey. It’s a journey of self-love and the birth of confidence, it is the forming of a team all along. Hemingway wrote that we are all broken, and that’s how the light gets in. With your support and reassurance I will know that it’s okay pieces of me are broken, that it’s okay to let your light in, and in those spaces, I too will fill you with light. 

Never date someone with a soft heart

Never date someone with a soft heart because they are not sure how to love halfway. They will not play it cool with you. They will not wait an hour to answer your texts. They will express their feelings without restraint. They will compliment you and ask you over to their place — and at first, you don't know how to handle such straightforward affection because you are used to messy mixed signals.

Never date someone with a soft heart because you will have to put in effort in order to keep them. You will have to reorganize your priorities to place them at the top. You will have to make a commitment to them because they are not interested in summer flings or almost relationships
that never become the real thing.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they are going to make you wonder whether you wasted half of your life. You are going to realize the relationships you were apart of in the past were nothing compared to this new love you have discovered. You are going to decide that you never knew what intimacy was, not really until you met them.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they will challenge you to look at yourself in a new light. You will have to stop acting so pessimistic. You will have to stop considering yourself unworthy of love. You will have to rethink your worldview because your person will not let you continue thinking so low of yourself. They will encourage you to practice self-care and self-love. They will not stop until you see yourself the way they have always seen you.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they will get glued to your mind. You will not be able to stop thinking about them. They will become the highlight of your day. You will look forward to every second spent with them. You will miss them after only spending minutes apart.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they are not going to give up on you easily. They are fighters. If you hurt them, they will want to understand why. If you have a disagreement, they will want to come to a compromise. They will not want to let you go after one small inconvenience. They will want to hold onto you — as long as you are worth it.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they will not be forgotten easily. It will be difficult for you to walk away from them. You will grow attached quickly because they will treat you differently than anyone else has before.

Never date someone with a soft heart because they are going to change your entire world. They will inspire you to become a better person, just by spending time with you. You will end up working harder in the hopes of accomplishing as much as they do in a day. You will end up pushing yourself further than you believed you were capable of reaching.

Never date someone with a soft heart — unless you are ready to commit. Unless you are ready to love without abandon. Unless you are ready to put all of your efforts into the most thrilling relationship of your life. 

8 Little Ways A Libra Woman Will Capture Your Heart

1. Her smile

A Libra woman is known for her captivating smile. She has the ability to make even the most stony-faced person laugh. Their natural ability to light up any room with their radiant smiles is just one of the ways she will melt your heart. It is something that she does not have to force. A Libra woman will leave a long-lasting impression on every person that she encounters. When the corners of her mouth form an upward curve and her eyes light up, she will make you remember every time why you want to be with her. You can’t help but be drawn in by the Libra woman’s smile that will brighten up your life.

2. She is chill AF

A Libra woman is pretty laid-back and is known for her easy-going nature. She is happy to spend her weekends chilling at home with you, on the sofa, eating nachos with a good movie. But on the flip-side, she is equally satisfied hitting the town, knocking back shots at the bar and pulling an all-nighter. She doesn’t feel the need to get too worked up over every stressful situation in her life. That is not to say she does not care. But why stress? She will be the balance that you need in your life. She will be the ying to your yang.

3. She is smart

A Libra woman is known for her intellect. She may not let you know from your first encounter with her. Taking note and being attentive to what you have to say, she will amaze you with her vast knowledge. You will never know this until you get to fully understand her beyond a superficial level. This is the side of her that you want to get know more of. You won’t have to dig too deep as she is a great conversationalist. She will seduce your mind but wants you to be able to do the same for her.

4. She has got your back

A Libra woman believes in loyalty. She will support you and respect the decisions that you choose to make. She will have your back through the good and the bad times. They have a tendency to put the happiness of their partner above their own which some may see as a bad thing. But for the Libra woman, she will give everything to you as long as she gets respect and loyalty from you in return. She can have a room full of admirers but will only have eyes for you.

5. She will keep you interested

A Libra woman knows how to flirt and she knows how to flirt well. Despite being a true romantic at heart, she will gain your attention through her flirtatious demeanor. It is not at all subtle and you will know that she has her eyes on you. She may be a little bit shy at first but that is all part of the attraction. Flirt back and you will be craving your Libra lady even more.

6. She is a lover, not a fighter

A Libra woman has an intense sensual side. She enjoys intimacy and loves it when you take control in the bedroom. She will not hesitate to initiate sex and wants to satisfy her partner. She is uninhibited and is a truly passionate lover. She has a kinky side that only those that get close enough get to enjoy. As long as you can stimulate her mind she will keep you entertained. A Libra woman is certainly known for being a lover and not a fighter. Just don’t piss her off.

7. She is honest

A Libra woman is known for being trustworthy and she is that person that anyone can confide in. Your secrets are safe with a Libra. She is a firm believer in being straight up with you and is unapologetic in her pursuit of being 100 percent real with you. If they truly care for you they will not give you half-truths. They hate petty gossip and lies. So as long as you remain by their side they will forever be your rock.

8. She will make you want to be a better person

A Libra woman is always on a journey to become a better version of herself. She wants to take you on that journey with her. She sets high standards for herself and is always striving to do better and be better. She will push herself in life, in love and career. There are no limits to what she can achieve and she will inspire you to be great. This woman knows how to capture your heart.

This is how you deal with almost relationships:

Almost is such a painfully poetic word; we were almost perfect, we were almost lovers, we almost made it. And like the word, almost relationships are arguably the hardest type of relationships to move on from. Despite having spent shorter time with each other, couples with these types of relationships also have fewer memories to cling onto and sadly, some of them have invested even more feelings than those in ‘real’ ones. Being in an almost relationship is like walking on a thin rope. It’s like tiptoeing at 3 a.m. It’s not knowing where you stand, questioning whether you have the right to be mad or to be jealous, and not having a voice because speaking might only scare him away.

This is how you deal with almost relationships: you stop wondering why it had to end. Even if the most you held was hands when he didn’t even tell you that he was in love with you. Yes, being in an almost, non-labeled relationship still matters but this doesn’t mean that you have to settle for less. 
Nevertheless, regardless of the type of relationship you had, being left still hurts. But more than being left, being left with no explanation is a much harder battle to face. Because the truth is that we always need a reason. Why did it happen all of a sudden? Is there someone else? Were the times we spent together meant nothing at all? Was I not enough? 
This is how you deal with no closure breakups (if it could be called a breakup): you just have to accept that sometimes, having no closure is closure. Because whether or not he gave you an explanation, a change of heart has happened and that alone means something. That alone meant everything. Having no closure hurts simply because feelings have already been invested. Because you have loved. And loving then losing inflicts pain. 
Your pain becomes such a powerful thing that it makes you question a lot of things and makes you doubt even your own worth. So instead of being content with one answer, this fear of not knowing where it all went wrong makes you search for more questions. This fear of not accepting only makes you weaker because over and over again, while you focus on giving the love you have for the person who has left, you unconsciously deprive yourself the love that you so deserve. This fear only stops you from understanding that sometimes, there could really be no closure; you just walk on.
Almost relationships. Having no closure. Both tell a tale of someone with a “one that got away” in their lives. And as much as you’d like to forget these people, at times they‘re stuck on you, like gum on your shoe, like a tattoo, like the handwritten letter he gave you which you can’t even dare crumple. There are nights when you remember them as if it all happened yesterday and you begin to wonder: could we have worked if I did this or would he have not left if I did that? This is exactly what we do wrong: we often think of things that could have or would have happened that we fail to realize the reasons why they didn’t happen in the first place.
This is how you deal with the ones who got away: look back. Sometimes, looking back can also be a good thing. Instead of imagining a future with the ones who got away, go back to the times you spent with them and think about when and why did the fire begin to lose its flame. Pick up the pieces of the unfinished puzzle. Gather the fallen petals that lay dry on the floor. Remember that it’s okay to feel the pain all over again. Embrace it and cry if you must. But once you find your answers, start walking towards the present. There’s a reason why the past is called the past.
And just in case you can’t find the answers, there is one solution that applies to any kind of a relationship’s ending: give up. Just give up the fight and let go. Realize that maybe you’re the only one left fighting or you simply had different battles to face. 
Understand that he got away and let go of all the hope that he is coming back because whether or not he is, what matters now is that you heal. If the pain is left, use it to make yourself stronger. If hate remains, don’t let it consume you and find your light. If sadness takes over, let it enter but never wallow in it. Just wait.
Wait for someone who is not just your home but your haven. Someone who will walk with you, hand in hand, and who will never lose his pace when the road gets rough. Someone who gets tired but never gives up. It’s our duty to love ourselves and even if sometimes, that means giving up the love we once thought was ours to keep for a lifetime.

I don't feel like I want a relationship anymore. and this is why....

Because I’m someone who loves with all my heart, I’ve had my share of devastating breakups. Every love I’ve had felt like it was going to be the last one I’d ever need until suddenly it wasn’t. I used to want love, but after all of the pain I’ve suffered and the disappointments I’ve endured, I just don’t want love anymore. Here’s why:

1. THE PAST PAIN HAS STILL OUTWEIGHED THE HAPPINESS.

After it was all said and done, the memories and feelings that always stuck with me the most were the bad ones. Maybe that’s an internal issue, which is highly likely, but if I can do something to avoid adding to that sea of bad feelings, I will.

2. I LOVED WAY TOO HARD. And TOO MUCH.

When I fall, I fall hard. The problem is, most of the people I’ve fallen for weren’t able to catch someone coming in at lightning speed so I always ended up crashing to the ground. I loved with everything I had and when it wasn’t or couldn’t be reciprocated, I have crushed all over again.

As the matter of Too Much. When I love I focused only to one person and its like a bank account that you have and you already spend all your money to bad Investment, there is no way you can invest in anything else anymore without time for collecting and saving new money.

3. I’M TERRIFIED OF BEING SCREWED OVER AGAIN. EVEN IF THE PAST BACK, I AM NOT SURE I WANT TO LABEL ANYTHING. 

Love is scary, there’s no way around that. Some will argue that it’s worth facing your fears for, but after several failed loves, I’m not quite sure it is anymore. 

married and divorced 🐍, check, 

engage with a narcissistic dragon 🐉, check, 

married and get left for a guy 🐽, check, 

trap on mixes signals, and left out of the cold 🌖.. check... 

after all that, it’s going to take one unicorn of a guy to have me face those fears again. Even when the person that I hold and love dearly to my heart, coming back and having a change of heart, I probably will back off. Sure I will bounce back to his arms in no time because he was so great doing certain things and reading me like no one else, but to wanted to be in a label, I don't think so. Too risky... I just don't want to lose it all over again.

4. I HAVE THE WORST TASTE.

The guys I choose to love always end up being terrible for me. This is my own fault for choosing the wrong partners, but it’s hard to tell who a person truly is and what qualities they have when your perception is based on first impressions (and when so many guys present themselves as someone they’re not).

5. LOVE ISN’T SUPPOSED TO BE HARD, BUT IT ALWAYS ENDS UP THAT WAY.

It’s really supposed to be the easiest emotion to feel and the most exhilarating, yet whenever I fall in love, it ends up being the hardest thing in the world. I’m pretty much done with fighting that losing battle. I JUST WANT TO BE CHILL. Take it easy. Taking time. Without Rush into anything that will cuff my heart. It’s just too heavy.

6. I’M NOT SURE BEING IN LOVE IS WORTH THE HEARTBREAK.

Love is great and all, but the pain of losing it is far worse. It’s not better to have loved and lost at all — especially not when it happens over and over again. It’s better to have never loved at all. Anyway, nowadays, you can get pretty much anything you want from Relationships without really being in Relationship. In that cases, you have no demands and no expectations. Everything will be simple and nice.

7. AFTER EVERY HEARTBREAK, THE PAIN OF ALL MY BREAKUPS COMES FLOODING BACK.

When my heart breaks again, it’s as if all the heartbreak I’ve ever experienced comes crashing down at once. It doesn’t make sense, but it’s how I was apparently wired and the more it happens, the more hurt I become.

Last time was worst, was Double whammy, and after all, that happen I was just thinking “fuck this” and I am okay just to Netflix and Chill.

8. BEING ALONE IS EASIER THEN BEING  LONELY IN RELATIONSHIP, and being LONELY IS EASIER THAN BEING HEARTBROKEN.

Sure, having someone to share my life with would be cool and all, but the longer I stay out of love, the less lonely I feel and the more I heal. I’ll take an occasional bout of loneliness over months of crying at rom-coms and downing chocolate ice cream any day.

It’s not that I avoiding love on purpose. I tried. I just can't anymore. At least not now.

I feel like I LOVE my freedom so much. When I realize there will be no “forces good morning and goodnight” texts, I can do whatever without someone telling what to do or thinking that I would disappoint someone. I have no burden.

9. I DON’T WANT TO GROW COLD.

My heart still works and I’d like to keep it that way. I don’t want to end up some bitter old hag that hates everything and everyone because some jackass broke her to the point of no return. So I think now, what I need is Healing. Not LABELING.

10. I FEEL LOVE BUT I AM NOT IN LOVE.

As I said. My heart still works and I’d like to keep it that way. I try to Open up and try to be happy again. But in deep rotten of my heart, I feel guilty for being Happier when I am alone, then with someone that devoted to me. Even tho I swear this is the best guy I ever date, I still feel something is missing. And with this feeling, I don't think I am supposed to be with relationships with anyone. At least not Right now.

What's the point of being in a relationship if it's not helping you enjoy life? Chance is You may stay out of loyalty or love for your partner, but breaking up doesn't negate those things; it just changes the type of loyalty or love you have. I've learned after several relationships ended that transitioning to friends or acquaintances actually helped us love each other because we weren't always arguing or trying to make each other something we're not. Don't feel like you have to force something into a predetermined formula to justify its existence. Dating may have been best for you a year ago, but something else may be best for you now. There's no shame or failure in that, and it doesn't make your connection less special.

Soft Heart .. Sad Eye...

Hey, you.

Yes, you.

You with the sad eyes.

How are you? How’s your heart?

Are you feeling like you will never be content and happy with life? That you are only surviving and living but not truly alive? Even when you’re with your family, with your friends, or with your loved ones, do you still feel alone?

I think we all feel that way, at some point in our lives, if not all the time, dull and numb and full of feelings all at the same time. A living contradiction.

You are probably tired of people telling you that, “Everything’s gonna be okay in the end,” “Think positive,” or “Don’t worry about it.” Words that often make it worse. Do you find it funny and appalling, too, when you hear them say those words to you? but I guess we can’t really resent them, for I, myself, am not sure of the right thing to say, too.

You don’t have to stop yourself from feeling. You don’t have to stop yourself from letting the sadness in, from letting yourself feel some darkness, from letting some of the shadows accompany you. Perhaps by facing them is how you’ll get through it.

Acknowledge their presence. Accept that they are with you, that they are a part of you, that you avoiding them would only result in you not being able to move forward.

Feel.

Let your feelings flow.

Let your heart get tired. Let your heart get numb.

Let it consume you — but for a momentary time only.

Feel.

Then, unknowingly, your heart will start letting happiness in, little by little.

And as uncertain as we are about the “when” and “hows” of it, just know that there is someone here silently cheering you on. We’ll make it through.

You’ll make it through.